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Went to see Happoradio on Saturday. Came home yesterday around six pm. How is it that seeing these guys causes a longer journey than just the concert night? I have no idea. Yet it keeps happening time after time. Not that I mind, usually these trips are so much fun there’s plenty to laugh about for weeks and months afterwards. Singing a karaoke version of a song to someone who wrote & performed it, for example, is fun.

So, home now, spending some quality time with Einari. Tarja finally made it home (she was stuck in Thailand for a bit longer than she planned, the volcanic ash thingy) and is now at Harakka. I should be doing other work stuff at home right now, but not getting much done.. a pile of videos, photos, writing waiting for my attention.

Better eat something and maybe watch some Smallville. Catching up to do. After that.. well, at least I’ll try to do things I should be doing.

Oh, and I might get to take photos of Adam Lambert!!!! Huzzah! A friend of mine needs photos for their site, and promised to try & get me to what he calls the “ass-pinching range”.

The hills of Hollywood

I started crying once, watching a documentary from Madagascar. It wasn’t sad, it was just so beautiful I couldn’t take it. But honestly, what I really couldn’t take was the fact that I wasn’t there myself, right at that moment. Or couldn’t believe I’d ever get there, anyway.

Right now, I also dream of living in Dublin or Cardiff for a year or so. Work with guys I see on Animal Planet, stalking lions the savanna, learning about them, sleeping in tents, taking photos, oh, taking a million photos. Spending two months in a jungle just waiting and waiting and waiting to see a glimpse of a wildcat. Seeing the Yellowstone bears go fishing in the spring.

I also miss California so much it hurts. Yes, I only spent 10 days over there and half of it in an air-conditioned luxury car, but I still miss it, genuinely. I think it was the weather and nature I loved the most, but also the sea and everything about the cities I’ve seen on tv and in the movies. The feeling of actually being there. The stuff you’ve watched on tv for most of your life.

But the nature. Big Sur, the small cities along Highway 1 – and I just realized I haven’t even shared the photos from our trip. Oh well, it’s only been two years…

Anyway, getting sidetracked here. The reason I started writing this whole thing was the self-loathing I’m feeling right now. Why? Because I can’t get anything done. Like saving money, actually making an effort to get to these places, to do things I really really want to do. I spend time on things I shouldn’t be spending it on, when I could be using it to do something that would help me gain things in the future. I’m WASTING my time, and I’m slowly running out of it. Maybe I’m having this good ol’ not-a-teenager-anymore crisis, I don’t know. I’m just panicking.

(Like Thom Yorke would put it: “I’m not living, I’m just killing time” or “I wish it was the sixties, I wish I could be happy
I wish, I wish, I wish that something would happen”..)

And secondly, what I’m most ashamed of, is this endless discontent. I hate people who complaint about things they don’t have. I’ve just recently realized I’m one of them! I am so sorry, friends. I’ll try to pay attention to these things more in the future. I have so much I should be thankful of, I have so much more than most of the people in the world.

Why isn’t it enough? Well, it just isn’t. I can’t stop myself from wanting more, so I’ll just keep dreaming, no matter how much it hurts.

But what I really need to do is shut up about it already. And DO SOMETHING.

From Poets of the Fall:

Unfortunately we are forced to cancel at least Thursday’s gig on MS Isabella. Marko has inflammation of the larynx + high fever, which in practice means he has no voice at all.

Fri & Sat are still open, but at the moment it doesn’t look too good. Our deepest apologies, we were really looking forward to these gigs. We hope we can play on the sea at a later date! Stay tuned.

Aww. We girls were actually excited to spend 3 days on a boat, although in normal circumstances it would be a nightmare. But, you know. When you love someone / a group of someones..

Picture taken at Klubi / Tampere last Thursday. More coming up soon at their photo gallery.

How can this be possible? Her face and name make me think of a redneck wild animal killing enthusiast who doesn’t have any respect for the nature or wildlife, the opposite of everything I love about Discovery / Animal planet.

Discovery Communications usually celebrates nature and wildlife, but by signing a deal with former governor Sarah Palin to host a reality show about Alaska, it will now pay millions to one of wildlife’s greatest enemies.

As governor of Alaska, Sarah Palin fought against protecting the Cook Inlet beluga whales and the dwindling population of polar bears. Plus, she escalated the bloody aerial wolf-killing campaign, and even planned to offer a $150 bounty for the severed forelimb of each killed wolf.

The same company that owns Animal Planet and is known for their stunning wildlife-focused shows has no business hiring someone as anti-wildlife as Sarah Palin. Tell Discovery Communications that Sarah Palin doesn’t deserve to host a show about “the powerful beauty of Alaska.”

SIGN THE PETITION HERE.

..this life without him. Some day it will come to that, and I can’t shake off the fear of it.

..got ~1000 photos of the bands we went to see. And still missed a couple of happenings taking place on stage.

What an awesome trip, once again. I love my girls. I love my boys. I love sitting in the car, singing out loud; sleeping in Omppu, spending a hangover day at a spa, dodging drunken people who are about to push me over with my camera. I love life on weekends like this.

Tomorrow, Tavastia. And while waiting for the live photos of Phoenix Effect and Poets of the Fall, I give you a hooded crow. What an awesome character.

Added a few tags. This needed them all!

What’s this? I suddenly feel like writing about my life! So, stuff follows.

Today is the first day of the tour. We’re gonna be driving like mad(wo)men on the Finnish highways and smaller roads just to see our boys (Poets of the Fall, Phoenix Effect) play for – how many-eth year? We used to have our own blog for the journeys and experiences, but we got lazy with it, and then totally forgot it ever was. Maybe we could do SOMETHING about that this year, huh, girls?

Some crappy cellphone photos can be found in my MMS blog. It’s kinda like watching our trips live, except the frame rate is really slow. And if I’m having too much fun (read: too much alcohol) I just might forget I even have a cellphone. Or a camera. Or fingers with which to operate those two.

Hey, awesome. Satu just called, she’s bought us 3 liters of quality red wine. This trip is going to be so LEGEN- …wait for it…. -DARY!!!

If you’ve never heard of Poets of the Fall and hence, have no idea why we’ve been spending thousands and thousands and thousands of kilometers in Satu’s Morphmobile (as we call it), flying to other countries, taking shady trains and routes and subways, spending dozens of nights in dozens of crappy hotels, then please. Feel free to experience some of that love here.

Better get packing. I’m the one who’s always late, but I’ve made a decision to be more careful with that. Too bad I made that decision five years ago and nothing’s changed. Oh well. They’re used to it.

Tah tah for now.

Sometimes I can handle more than 10 minutes outside just for fun. That only happens when I carry my camera and can actually pretend to have a reason to be outside.. in the snow.. and cold..

I’m sorry I haven’t been writing about my personal life anymore. I do realize how stupid it is to apologize for something like that, but for some silly reason I feel I have to. After sooo many years (has it been nine already?!) of blogging about everything I do, everything I feel, everything I’m going through in my life, it just feels.. rude? Why? I have no idea.

Maybe I’m finally trying to drop all the less important hobbies and concentrate on things I *really* wanna do in life. Like roam the savannah with Dave or some other nature maniac.

Yeah, I wish. I really do.